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FUCK YOUR LADDER, BEAR!!!
There is a little story - more like, a joke -, about the anxious Rabbit and the Bear.
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Rabbit needs a ladder but they don't own one. They think, maybe they could borrow from the Bear, but according to their memories, the Bear is not too friendly, let alone helpful. Still, Rabbit sets off in hope the Bear will lend them the ladder.
Rabbit dwells in their thoughts:
The bear is an asshole, usually they don't help anybody. But oh well, I'm already on my way to their house, so at this point I can try.
As the Rabbit approaches the house, more thoughts fill their brain:
Last time the Badger said, the Bear fucked them over near riverbank; and now I think about it, I didn't hear anybody else saying nice things about the Bear either. I shouldn't have come, it's a waste of time. But now that I'm here, I won't turn back, maybe I can have a few words with this prick.
Rabbit arrives at the house, and knocks on the door. While waiting, they are thinking, again:
The fuck I came here! They won't lend me the ladder, I can only hope the fucker won't kick my sorry ass out of the garden and...
The door opens and the Bear greets the Rabbit in a friendly manner.
"Hey, Rabbit! How can I help?"
"FUCK YOUR LADDER, BEAR!!!"
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I was in the city today after my driving class, running errands and I was really hungry. And I didn't dare to sit inside a restaurant to have a brunch. I went for my favorite safe place to order a takeaway, but it was too late, I already had a migraine.
I don't find it a trouble eating alone in a restaurant. I think my problem is that wherever I go, I expect people to treat me like: "what the fuck are doing here??? You don't belong here." I convince myself that I don't belong to this world, so don't give a chance to the world to accept me. I build this resentment in myself even before anything happens, because I expect rejection.
I should remind myself more of this story, being this anxious little rabbit whenever I rob myself from new experiences. Or simply just satiating basic needs.
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Rabbit needs a ladder but they don't own one. They think, maybe they could borrow from the Bear, but according to their memories, the Bear is not too friendly, let alone helpful. Still, Rabbit sets off in hope the Bear will lend them the ladder.
Rabbit dwells in their thoughts:
The bear is an asshole, usually they don't help anybody. But oh well, I'm already on my way to their house, so at this point I can try.
As the Rabbit approaches the house, more thoughts fill their brain:
Last time the Badger said, the Bear fucked them over near riverbank; and now I think about it, I didn't hear anybody else saying nice things about the Bear either. I shouldn't have come, it's a waste of time. But now that I'm here, I won't turn back, maybe I can have a few words with this prick.
Rabbit arrives at the house, and knocks on the door. While waiting, they are thinking, again:
The fuck I came here! They won't lend me the ladder, I can only hope the fucker won't kick my sorry ass out of the garden and...
The door opens and the Bear greets the Rabbit in a friendly manner.
"Hey, Rabbit! How can I help?"
"FUCK YOUR LADDER, BEAR!!!"
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I was in the city today after my driving class, running errands and I was really hungry. And I didn't dare to sit inside a restaurant to have a brunch. I went for my favorite safe place to order a takeaway, but it was too late, I already had a migraine.
I don't find it a trouble eating alone in a restaurant. I think my problem is that wherever I go, I expect people to treat me like: "what the fuck are doing here??? You don't belong here." I convince myself that I don't belong to this world, so don't give a chance to the world to accept me. I build this resentment in myself even before anything happens, because I expect rejection.
I should remind myself more of this story, being this anxious little rabbit whenever I rob myself from new experiences. Or simply just satiating basic needs.