what the hap is fuckening

"Krad's Art Dump 2.0" is here with all of my art from the past five years minus ~100 pieces of NDA artwork.  I started this gift last decade as a way to give back to the old internet that mentored me, and it ended up a very poignant way to archive my work.

Before you download, please be aware there are many NSFW/R18 pieces as well as potentially disturbing artwork. You are welcome to save/delete whatever you want, all I ask is you do not reshare, or use it for AI training*.

Download link (1.1 GB)



Previous 2011-2020 dump: https://www.mediafire.com/file/3hqo6ltoui8mkt1/

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could somebody go back in time about a week and tell past!krad 'one does not simply speedrun through a fucking flu (during the holidays no less).'

:D; no wonder my usual zicam + gatorade regime wasn't doing shit

anyway. multiple 15 hr night sleeps later. krad is alive for some definition of alive. and back at home. finally!!!!!!

there's a game i've started playing with myself when i'm stuck *somewhere* just observing the environment - basically called "spot what the architect actually designed and what was tweaked after by the developer/client/company/regulations/future updates".

* checking a row of lights or ceiling tiles; is one light/tile a different color or randomly stuck in a corner not parallel to the others? are there fire sprinklers in random places and not spaced apart equally?

* is a piece of stone exceptionally worn away like compared to the surrounding ones like people have used it excessively? is a sign suddenly anachronistically metal with machine modern font instead of wood if it's in a castle?

* is a house/historical place mostly symmetrical except for one weird random room? does the room have a different structural design to it? is the wood floor a different texture?

* is an outlet super obviously on a really big bare wall at a different height than another outlet?  (was a tv screen planned there to hide it and then later removed?)

etc etc

it's been an unexpectedly fun way to train the mind to recognize all the little details that often go unnoticed in the surroundings, and to also ask oneself why (do people use things differently). a lot of times my biggest issue with people drawing interiors/settings is it doesn't feel "lived in", which this observation seeks to help with.

* neat gamedev writeup on LoZ: Ocarina of Time talking about some meta-gameplay difficulties the devs had to work through in regards to designing the first 3D action game. Fascinating to see how most modern games like Elden Ring today still operate off of similar spatial principles.

* i was talking to a friend on bsky about LLM's and reducing friction of delusions; bellingcat's founder Elliot H. posted a really good thread a while back that I keep thinking about. (I have my reservations about bellingcat in general and where they get their funding but this feels insightful.)

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* Bart Ehrman's last lecture - "The Most Significant Discovery in the History of Biblical Studies”.  haven't been in these circles for a while, this was a refreshingly thoughtful lecture/sermon of sorts.

* one of the latest pieces of news this week is firefox has a new CEO who apparently is commited to driving a perfectly decent product off a cliff; they're forcing AI upgrades and there's rumors of disabling extensions in the future, but that's less concrete. While there is a follow-up clarification  that the devs are trying hard to keep AI explicitly opt in / have a kill switch for it, i'm less certian that they'll be able to keep that from CEO pressure.

if you feel strongly about this, i've given feedback at https://connect.mozilla.org/ and suggest you do as well. For immediate AI-free alternatives, waterfox and vivaldi are the two strongest ones I consistently see in rec lists.

* thin desires vs thick desires - thoughtful articulation on a concept i've been seeing a lot lately. (though i have my reservations that quote unquote pornography in its entirety is a thin desire since to me sexual desire in media is pretty nuanced; i see where the thought line comes from, but that's a side tangent.) 

* escape clause - a blogger decides to move away from the apple ecosystem after seeing another dev elsewhere get locked out of mission critical email accounts.  (i really liked the empathy to apple devs at the same time of concretely outlining why he's moving away)

'man this reminds me of one of those ICU weeks' < not what you want to hear from me lol

was. another one of those days.

real glad i remembered a bunch of tricks like typing up all the detailed notes/timestamps in a 3 page file with multiple copies when there was an hour of lucidity since it's what got her in a specialist place tonight back in the big city again. (docs tend to take one a lot more seriously if you come in with a notebook of shit that can be cross-referenced with discharge papers. also helps to summarize things when your higher function brain is absolutely fried from lack of sleep. bonus if you speak that medical acronym language.)

now it's the waiting game again.

guess who was in *two* er waiting rooms *another* nine hours last night until 4am ..... x.x

we're uh. ruling things out? slightly more stable-armed-with-more-knowledge-and-levers but still waiting on a specialist appointment later.

it's been a week ngl.

due to an expected family death that just happened, the holidays, and avoiding The News - i'll be peacing out offline for a week or two (and working on the last few projects i owe folks as good distraction, y'all know who you are.)

well wishes not needed directly; just be kind to yourself and each other <3